We’ve had a lot of changes in our lives in the last year and
a half. My mom passed away, and we moved from the "Bible Belt" and the only home
my children can remember to start again at the Jersey Shore, um . . . a little
bit different than the Bible Belt, by the way. My husband started a new job
that brings a good bit of pressure, and we both left ministry positions in a
church we helped to start. We have written four offers on houses, considered
living in a camping trailer (with a dog, two cats, and a turtle), found a last-minute rental above our budget, and
weathered a historic hurricane followed by a snowstorm. We have purchased a house only
to have it cost us thousands of dollars in unexpected repair expenses, and we
still are looking for a church. In many ways, I want the warmth of the season
that was before.
As I started writing this blog, I remembered that I had
blogged several years back, while I was still in the ministry position in my
church. I reread some of those posts and wondered who that person was. I had
such excitement and hope for the future. I was passionate about the thoughts
and ideas I wanted to communicate about the Lord, family, and ministry. I felt
purpose in my life and could see God moving in such exciting ways. My life was
full, and my days were busy . . . too busy, really. But, as I sat thinking
about that season of life, I found myself wanting to cling to it, to go back
there and walk again the sunny paths that inspired me.
Still, as I remember more clearly those days gone by, I am
reminded that each season has its bright and dark moments. Summer is filled with
days of fun and sunshine, but it also brings rain, humidity, sunburn, and storms.
So, too, we often see only the happy parts of the seasons of our lives as we
look back, afraid the good days are gone. We often fail to see the difficulties of those days or the faithfulness of God in growing us through them. And we fail to see the hope of the
coming days, autumn’s colors, cool breezes, beautiful sunsets, and fresh
smells.
As I reconsider this new season of my life, I can see that
although my mom’s passing was harder than I could’ve imagined, I know she is
with her Savior and is joyful and pain-free. My children and I have met wonderful
friends we never would have met had we stayed in Georgia. We’ve also learned a
lot about the world outside of the Bible Belt and the widespread need for the
Gospel of Jesus Christ to go beyond our comfort zones. My husband’s job has
given him new opportunities and has provided for all of our financial needs,
even the unexpected ones. We’ve had more time to just be a family without
fitting our lives around all of our ministry responsibilities. We have a
house that has comfortably welcomed family and large groups of friends for a day and up to a week. We
weathered our first hurricane and a snowstorm together and gained fond memories that we’ll have forever. We have grown spiritually as a family as we are united in seeking to find a church where we can each grow and serve again.
As I ponder the current season of my life, I’m persuaded
that looking back and cherishing the joys of past seasons is good, but if we
cling to those times, we will not see clearly to embrace the joys of the days ahead. Whatever season you’re in, I hope you’ll embrace it! Remember and cherish God's graces in the past, but don’t look
back longing for those seasons. Let’s look forward to the colors changing, breathe in
the cool air, and enjoy the graces God wants us to know in this coming season of our
lives.
Remembering . . . and anticipating,
Donna